Ever since Jr. High I looked forward to the winter time. I loved the way the cool breezes hit against my face. I loved the fact that I could wear a long sleeve shirt and not worry about breaking into a sweat or develop pit stains. Winter was the fat man’s paradise where the lower temperatures gave me a sense of freedom that no other season provided. I was in a seasonal wonderland where my above average body heat didn’t control me and I could finally wear and act how I wanted without the embarrassment of my overly-sweating body showing itself.
But winter was no friend and he was only acting as a mask to further deep rooted problems. Most people who chronically sweat are probably over weight and I was no exception. Furthermore, I had high blood pressure as a result. And the high body temps were probably a result of this. Who wouldn’t be hot when your heart is working twice as hard as the average individual?
In May of 2006 I was hospitalized for my high blood pressure and as a result, I have been taking three different blood pressure medications. Atentolol, a beta blocker, Avalid, a diuretic, and Norvasc, a vasodilator.
My entire perception has changed. With a normal blood pressure, I now enjoy the sun and the heat and have even worn a long sleeve shirt when it’s 80 degrees out. I actually have days where I want to feel the warmth of the sun against my neck and feel the summer’s breeze blow against my shirt.
It’s such a strange perception shift. This has to be the feeling that one would feel when observing an indigenous tribe for the first time or experiencing weightlessness in space. While before others would tell me that they “feel cold”, I didn’t understand. But now I feel their cold and I feel their discomfort, and for once my perception of temperature seems right in line with those around me. And I am finally figuring out that I was living in a whole different world these past few years.
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